January 15, 2007 |
| DARLENE CONLEY |
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One of Ronn's dearest friends passed away on January 14, 2007 from cancer. Darlene Conley was a member of the cast on The Bold and Beatiful for almost 20 years, portraying "Sally Spectra"
RONN: Where do I start? My sweet Darlene and I have always had some kind of connection. Since she first came on the show. Maybe it was an intuition, or an inner understanding, or maybe it was just sharing an innate love of life and fun with a little whiskey thrown in. Little did I know it would be relevant in what was to be her last moment with us here on earth. I had visited Darlene in the hospital, actually me and Winsor Harmon went to see her more than 2 months ago, and we hunted down a bottle of good Irish whiskey to bring her. This may sound strange to most of you given her condition, but trust me, Darlene was that kind of spirit. We just wanted to see a smile on her face when we gave her something like that (in a hospital.) It worked. On Sunday morning, January 14th I intended to go visit her at her home. I knew she was getting near the end. I called and called but no one answered the phone. So I picked up my girls and drove home, which was about 45 minutes away. That evening I got a call from our friend, Eva, saying Darlene didn't have much time left. I hopped in my car and took off. While I was driving, I asked Darlene.......If it wasn't too selfish of me to ask....would she wait for me. When I arrived, her son called me into the room. Dar's eyes were closed. When I took her hand and said "Darlene, it's Ronn...... she kind of took a double gasp of air which her son felt was her recognizing that I was there. He left the room and I took her hand and stroked her head. I told her how much everyone loved her. That she wasn't alone. And that it was OK to let go and move on. Believe me, she was ready to go. There was no quality of life left with what had taken over her body by then. Within about 10 minutes, she was gone. I stayed for what seemed the longest time just holding her hand and stroking her head. As other people started filing into the room they would ask if she was gone. I said yes. I knew she left because I felt her pass through me as she left. I know it might seem far-fetched to some of you, but I know what I felt. It took my breath away for a moment. It was the most amazing feeling. I didn't feel sad. I felt elated. I felt blessed to have been the one she chose to share that moment with. Everyone said they were glad it was me that was with her. They felt it seemed fitting in so many ways. As I drove home, I still didn't feel sadness. I felt euphoric. Like Darlene had left a part of herself within me. The part that loves life and always sees the positive and comic side of things. Maybe it was the essence of her spirit. I've dreamt about her several times since then. She's always in my thoughts. I ask that all of you say a little blessing for her. Send her on her way. Wish her love and light where ever she may be. Don't be sad. But rather feel the love of life and the life of love that was so much the essence of Darlene.
In love and light.........Ronn
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